A truthful lie

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I get into these funks
and I know that it’s normal
to go through these moments
but why on earth do they have to come
when I’m in the midst of peace

It’s because a woman’s entire self-worth rests on her looks. That’s why. It’s because we live in a beauty-obsessed society where the most important thing a woman can do is make herself attractive to men.
– Liane Moriarty, Big Little Lies

A truthful lie

Focused

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I got out of bed today.
That’s what I tell myself on my best days and my hardest days.
That’s one of the ways I know how to love myself.
It’s a simple struggle.
The irony.
But every way the day unfolds is a bonus.
So if whatever you’re going through makes the day seem unbearable
just focus on getting out of bed.
You might surprise yourself on what you’ll accomplish after that. 

Focused

Now let’s see

.2018.
There were many moments I
smiled,
laughed,
cried,
screamed,
shut down,
missed,
loved,
cherished,
and appreciated.
Value was present in each of those experiences
even the ones I was never taught to face
and through some of those times
my flaws surfaced,
but my mindset and self-love surpassed them all.
I’m learning how to celebrate every bit of happiness I deserve.
It’s a journey.
It’s never ending
and I am thankful for that.
It’s been my happiest year yet.

Now let’s see

The Current

I was supposed to be getting ready for school.
I was in kindergarten.
It was dark.
Our windows were decorated with tape.
It looked like huge snowflakes.
My mom was watching the news and told me that I wasn’t going to school that day.
It was the day hurricane Iniki hit Kaua’i.

Hurricane Lane took over the talk of the town this week
from category to category,
stalking up on water and spam,
taping slippers to the ground,
and tracking its path.
During times like these people often say,
“prepare for the worst and hope for the best.”
The unsung notes of that phrase is
the weight of waiting,
the anticipation for it to come and pass
and to force yourself to pause
like the eye of the storm.

So the next time something else in life
causes you to prepare for the worst
and hope for the best
remember the importance
and value
of waiting
while being kind to your soul
and living wholeheartedly through it all.
Hopefully that next time won’t be another hurricane in the season.

The Current